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Tracing our emotional patterns

Our childhood plays a crucial role in shaping how we deal with people in our lives, our boundaries, our comfort in giving and receiving love, genuineness, authenticity, etc. 

This is the conditioning we pick up through observing our environment where we grew up, our relationship with parents, siblings, others around, also the kind of pressure and challenges we silently took on without being aware of it. There are multiple scenarios.

For example, I grew up in a family where my parents detested each other. My father was emotionally, mentally absent and had no interest in raising us. My mother had to do it all alone. I’m proud of her. However, I was emotionally distant even from her because I felt misunderstood and pressurized due to family situations. Monetarily my needs were met. However, my domestic life was imbalanced, and I unconsciously gathered a lot of codependency habits from my mother.

And it took me a while to work on them because, until 27, I was still acting out through those patterns. I didn’t understand the importance of healthy boundaries. I would usually chase emotionally unavailable people because I had experienced that since childhood, and it felt familiar. I thought I needed to do everything in my might to make relationships work. 

But that’s not true love. Love is wishing good for people even when they are not in our lives. Love doesn’t mean we need to undervalue self-worth and just give all we have to please the other person. How can we give if we are empty from the inside? 

Love is accepting others for who they are, respecting their boundaries and emotional capacity, observing if there’s an alignment between the dreams, hopes, wishes, understanding, etc. If something feels off, one can walk away while still not doing harm or speaking ill about the other involved. That’s mature love and this can be about any form of relationship, not just the romantic ones.

When we see movies, we pick up the idea that every romance should be hot and steamy, with lots of chemistry. There’s this consistent push and pull. Usually one tends to avoid emotions and the other one is over-submissive. Neither one is healthy! Firstly, one should never suppress or avoid feeling their emotions because it builds up in the body if left for too long, and later it can show physical symptoms like pain in an area.

Of course, emotions are uncomfortable if one is not used to handling them because it takes tons of inner work and intentionality to see your thoughts, feelings and yet not get consumed by them. It’s like observing your desires in a third person.

Secondly, the one who takes on the challenge to open up the emotionally distant person and chase them till they receive a yes is also unhealthy. Many times the submissive one picks up intuitively the hidden love within the connection. Maybe the one being avoidant actually cares. But just because one cares to some extent doesn’t mean they are prepared for a balanced relationship. 

One really cannot have the capacity for a stable relationship unless they are very self-aware, have a humble ego, have the capacity to love, learn and grow together. Someone still struggling to become whole within themselves can never give or even receive in a well-grounded manner. There can be extreme passion between two people, but both need to evolve from mere physical attraction to emotional, mental, and spiritual compatibility. 

The chaser should learn to respect even the rejection or disinclination to settle down. Accept that the person is just not ready. Something is incomplete within the submissive that they are willing to give love to an unavailable/distant person; one who thinks it’s too much to handle. It’s not like the chaser doesn’t know in their heart that this is something they need to let go of.  But sometimes, they are too wrapped up in the illusion of what could be. They fall in love with the potential and not the current reality.

It’s good to love the person despite who they are: whether they are ready or not. But that doesn’t mean one has to compromise on their needs to stay in an imbalanced dynamic, just because one loves the other person. A greater sense of self-esteem, paying attention to our values, and what we can bring to the table as a wholesome person is essential.

Unless we become unified in our consciousness, we will keep attracting karmic lessons in the form of different people, but similar patterns. If you look at everything from a spiritual lens, every single person out there is a teacher. Many don’t directly teach you, but if you’re paying attention to your as well as their patterns and behavior, you will learn to decode what inner work is pending and for whom.

Every person acts out of the conditioning they went through in childhood, their traumas, personal battles. As one evolves and works actively on raising their consciousness, they unlearn all that unhealthy paradigm, whatever is holding them back from fully owning their light. So, it’s also a daily practice to see people deeply, know the place they are coming from, and not take their behavior personally because everyone has some of the spiritual enhancement pending.

A beautiful aspect of emotional healing and inner work is that we start recognizing and tracing back to the root cause easily when we tend to repeat the same behavior. There come accountability and maturity in handling it. The blame game or self-hatred goes out the window. It simply gets replaced by a willingness to change, for the soul’s growth.

 

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Moment of reflection

This year 2020 has been huge for me in terms of accepting myself COMPLETELY for who I am. I started this year with a tinge of escapism. Everytime something would go wrong in my personal life, my first instinct would be to run away to a future imaginary happy situation, and feel disempowered within present scenario.

There was an unevolved sense of life purpose, as it had not completely taken its form. There was a lack of strong vision, confidence in my own abilities, commitment to stick to that path because I was fearful of being judged and not being good enough.

But I faced my Saturn return’s major transition this March, and while the world was still and silent, I on the other hand was purging and going through an inner battle of self-realization and actualization.

I took on the challenge that was thrown at me. Even though the way things unfolded didn’t make sense; even though there were traces of resistance and doubt, I still took on that road of creating exactly what I love. How do I see myself living my life? What is going to fill me up? Am I denying some aspects within me and why?

I realised that the only one who ever holds me back is me. If I back myself up with all my strength, I know I can go against the grain without a shred of hesitation. It was a huge epiphany for me. There’s no shame in talking about what I love doing. There’s no shame in admitting my passions and dreams.

I usually like keeping a low-profile about my work: partly humility and partly I don’t trust that everyone moves with good intentions of everyone else. So, I don’t reveal much of my plans until they have fully taken shape. But then, sometimes because of this I also come off as I don’t have much going in my life, which is far from truth.

I am always learning, upleveling my skills, and trying to gain spiritual insights and knowledge about helping humanity and this planet in general. Some of the subjects don’t make sense to common people, and I’m learning to be okay with it. I don’t have to prove my worth to anyone. The work that I will create should practically help people whenever they choose to go to it, and that’s the empire I’m creating.

The amount of efforts I put behind the scenes, only I know. Just because I observe everything and don’t reveal much, doesn’t give anyone on the outside to disrespect my craft and my devotion to it.

So this year, I learned not to underestimate myself, and not to talk as if I’ve nothing to do or teach. Whether people pick up on it or not, I don’t have to be concerned with that, but I always have to stand in my truth and not shape-shift to make others feel comfortable.

One should always stand in their light, no matter how bright, unbearable, or triggering it may seem to others.

I’m of course very kind most of the times. I don’t like pulling people down when they want to do something new. I love encouraging them, bringing their confidence up because I want to see everyone be their true self. Unfortunately, I haven’t received so far such enthusiastic support from anyone, except God and my ancestral spirit team. But, I’m still proud of how far I’ve come in terms of personal power.

My spirit team has given me so much of courage that I’ve learned to not be so extra hard on myself, and pinpoint every minor flaw in my work. It’s okay to be imperfect; what’s important is that we keep evolving regardless.

I’m extremely excited for the blessings 2021 would hold for me.

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Being Brave and Bold

I recall a beautiful line from the movie “The Perks of being a Wallflower”- We always accept a love we think we deserve. And this is absolutely true. It’s not even just about love; it’s about every single thing in life: even money, fame and success.

I’m not super attached to the material possessions but I know money is a great tool to enhance one’s quality of life as well as help the world around. Therefore, having a flourishing business/craft for me has less to do with gaining external validation, but more to do with, ” I wanna give back to mother earth and the less privileged humans and animals around, in whatever way I can”. And I’m still in the process of building the foundation.

I really value health, nutrition, and using environment friendly products. And to be honest, they are pricier compared to the toxic, non-biodegradable products out there which severely impact the ecosystem. But then it makes sense as well why those products are costly. I’ve an overall understanding that to eat well and take care of the nature, one needs to invest a bit more financially. The current time is not like the ancient era where deep connection to Pachamama was embedded in everyone.

Just like love, even in terms of financial abundance and prosperity, we accept a payment we think we deserve. Now, I had to clear a major limiting belief within me regarding this matter: my lack consciousness; this feeling of not having enough or receiving what I deserve for the work I do.

My ideas and visions are quite bold, out of the box, and many times they don’t make sense to others around me. But does that mean I need to water down my ideas in order to seem sensible? I realize that many times people just mean well and that’s why they want to advise. However, if there’s a powerhouse within you, if you are like the Sun, your light cannot be contained within a box. You’ll have to fully embrace that wildness within you and move along with that energy, grounding it in the real world, so that others who don’t have the same courage learn from you. And it’s okay. We all learn different things from each other. We all are teachers and students simultaneously.

Over time, I have learned to fully accept my ideas for what they are, and not doubt their potential to thrive. If it’s a strong calling in my heart, there’s a reason for its existence, and it’s not crazy to follow that lead. This is how pioneers are created.

Sometimes the seeds we lay down yields the fruits after immense patience, at a sweet divine time. So, if one is looking for instant gratification, they can miss out on the fulfillment they would extract from being devoted to their path of pure joy.

I take a lot of time creating the divine inspiration I receive. Along with that, I’m also practicing and learning yoga, meditation, ayurveda, herbal healing, crocheting, etc. My day stays quite packed up, and I love everything I do, because I’m following my passionate urges, thanks to my Sagittarius North Node.

Hence, I realise that I cannot underestimate my own products by marking them low cost, just because everyone else around me is doing that. In fact, I should stop comparing myself to anyone else. All of them are doing the best that they can, and they are aware the kind of community they desire.

I want something different: a strong soul community where each one of us is strong, independent, in our power, healing ourselves like a boss, doing what we love, and there’s no malicious ill-feelings of bringing someone down. There’s full support and encouragement. I don’t really care for praises but I do care that I make difference in a constructive way for whoever I create my work. Not everyone may like it, but the few ones who resonate would be whole-heartedly loving it.

And that’s why I need to clear my own fear of being seen. I need to clear my apprehension around receiving more money. Everything comes straight up from God; even money. We own nothing! When we die, we travel just as a soul. The kind of material wealth I deserve can only be decided by God, but atleast I need to believe I deserve it. If I doubt it, I will receive the same energy in the outside world.

The external world is a mirror of our internal world. Working on my spiritual gifts is a major part of my soul’s purpose, which blossoms side by side with my creativity. I love the idea of working hard, but not at the cost of undermining my efforts and devotion, in order to appease others around. So having a clear sense of self-worth is important.

If I don’t believe I deserve abundance; if I believe I need to push myself extra hard, and bend my integrity, work ethics to gain popularity and acceptance, that’s exactly what I will receive.

So know what you want, and don’t settle down for anything less! Be brave and expansive in your vision. No matter how talented you are, if you don’t see your calibre, no one else will.

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Mix Vegetable Soup

This Sunday I prepared a delightful and delectable mix vegetable soup. The universe guided me to start sharing my soulful recipes, and hence I have set my intention that whoever comes across my posts may receive the self-care energy and enthusiasm from the Divine.

It’s quite a simple recipe with all the ingredients easily available.

Beans(100g)
Onion (1 large)
Tomato puree (3 tbsp)
Capsicum(1 large)
Radish(1 small)
Zuccini(1 small)
Carrot(1 small)
Cabbage(roughly chopped 100g)
Potato (1 medium sized)
Brinjal (1 medium sized)
Broccoli (chopped 100g)
Boiled pulses (200g)
Coriander leaves and dry fruits for garnish
Oil (3 tsps), salt as per taste
cumin seeds (1 tsp) ; you can use mustard seeds as well
Crushed ginger-garlic paste
Coriander powder(1 tsp)
Cumin seed powder (1 tsp)
Red chilli powder (1 tsp)
Turmeric powder(1 tsp)
Curry powder (1 tsp)
Ramen (enough for 2 people)- optional

I actually like my soup little spicy and I’ve an Indian palate; therefore the quantity of spices is agreeable to my taste buds. You can alter the quantity and the spices you add according to your liking. Some simply love the use of salt, pepper, herbs and different seasonings, and that would be flavorsome too.

Add the oil to the cooking pot. Once it heats up, put the cumin seeds in the hot oil and let it splutter.
Next add the chopped onions and stir it on medium flame till it becomes translucent. Mix the ginger-garlic paste with onions, and saute till the raw smell disappears.
Now add in all the spices mentioned above and turn down the flame at low heat. In case you are simply adding crushed pepper, herbs and seasonings, you can do that in the end, once everything has been cooked.
Add few tablespoons of water to the spices so that they properly blend and release their flavors. Also pour in the tomato puree. On medium heat, saute till the entire water evaporates and you get left with a thick brownish red paste.
Now, put in all the chopped vegetables you have, and keep stirring in the pot for three minutes, on low heat. I add salt according to taste at this stage.
Simply add water to the cooking pot till the veggies submerge. Now you can cook it on medium flame, making sure to stir the soup every 5 minutes.

You can sit and relax, read some book with soft music playing by. I’m trying to make my whole cooking process a meditation. Sometimes, I can just be monkey-brained and want to prepare something rightaway. But my intuition always asks me to slow down and savour the cleaning, cutting and cooking process.

My tip: Listen to Alina Baraz. Her voice just makes the atmosphere cozy and warm.

Now, the final steps:

Check if the veggies have become tender by pressing them with the soup spoon gently. If no, let the soup sit longer. If yes, mix in the boiled pulses and cook for another 5-7 minutes. Also add the ramen/noodles you have at this moment. Always make sure to have the consistency to your liking by adding proper quantity of water.
Once everything feels soft, mushy and tender, turn off the heat. Add the seasonings and herbs if any. I sprinkled coriander/parsley leaves and some dry fruits.

And perfect! It’s absolutely healthy and gratifying. You can add any vegetables of your choice: maybe spinach, mushrooms, etc.

A nutritious food keeps your mind, body, and soul in good spirits. It’s moreover a way of self-care. I hope you enjoy it. 

Bon Appetit !

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Healing the sacred womb energy!

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If you are a woman and you experience severe menstrual cramps, I’m pretty sure you have developed a love-hate relationship with your monthly periods. Every time you see that date in your calendar, you start detesting what’s about to go down in the next few days. Even though this is a beautiful cycle of death and rebirth of fertility, it sometimes feels like a burden to womanhood.

I have gone through similar ups and downs in my menstrual cycle journey, and this month on Libra New Moon, I have decided to follow certain changes in my lifestyle patterns to witness how it makes me feel during periods from now on.

My Inner Goddess has been calling me persistently to give her everything she desires to feel healthy and beautiful. I had been quite busy with my creative projects for the last year. As a result, I wasn’t paying attention to my divine feminine that loves sensual experience and luxury.

Luxury for her doesn’t mean wasting money on unnecessary objects for vanity. “Luxury” stands for the simple joys in life which can promote self-care and nourishment.

For example, I love waxing my entire body on a monthly basis because it makes me feel elegant and graceful. I love good perfumes, essential oils, herbal body care products which relish my sense of touch and smell. I’m not a shopaholic. However, if I see a beautiful dress, some jewellery, etc that brings out my royalty, makes me feel like an empress of my own faery world, I do not mind investing in it.

I’m a highly creative person. So, not only do I love wearing beautiful clothing and adornments, but I also enjoy creating them, so that I can see the same sparkle in someone else’s eyes. I love being inflow of life, living as if there’s no tomorrow. I don’t work well with plans; I let my heart and intuition guide me in every decision of life because it brings me closer to Krsna.

Whenever I stifle my flow, my creative passion and sensuality with a more fixed approach, tying myself down to a routine and not exploring beyond it because of laziness, fear of free expression or my unconventionality, lack of willpower, or whatever the reason be, I can feel my feminine energy get frustrated. Sometimes my masculine energy can take over the reins of my soul and be in this “go-getter” mode obsessively, which can drive my inner goddess insane.

There’s nothing wrong with being a go-getter. However, the purpose of my life is to have a yin-yang balance, and I truly love both these aspects within me. I don’t want to be unfair to any of these energies. I love dancing, moving my body through yoga, energy work to feel rooted, connected to Mama Gaia. I had become physically lazy for the last one year. I gained weight, and my body’s confidence plummeted as a result.

I’m not someone who gets attracted to people on the basis of physical appearance first. It’s the energy that draws me in initially. However, since I love balance, the way I feel inside should also reflect outside in my appearance. Cleaning oneself, getting ready, dancing, goofing around, putting little makeup on: these are ways to declutter my own energetic space and aura. I feel good inwardly when I stay healthy and active.

When I don’t do these activities, my inner goddess builds up resentment towards my own body. Those feelings of annoyance, discouragement builds up within my solar plexus, sacral and root chakra, and therefore I experience painful cramps.

So, I have decided that I’m going to eat extremely healthy and savor cooking my meals, rather than doing it half-heartedly because I’ve other goals to chase. Put love in everything you do. Make your every moment a prayer, a meditation. My divine feminine has been urging me to make those changes immediately, and I’m pretty sure if I honor her desires, she is going to gift me with something I’ve not experienced before.

My menstrual pain recently was attached to my subconscious beliefs about my body- not owning and expressing it fully, and feeling it didn’t look beautiful. I already know that we are pretty regardless of our shape, size, skin tone, height, etc factors. But sometimes, we still carry remnants of a “lack” of self-worth.

You do not have to convince everyone else outside that you are good enough and deserving of love. If you don’t love your mind, body, or spirit entirely, you have to ask yourself: “What positive changes can I embrace right now to feel whole from the inside? What do I genuinely find fragmented inwardly? How can I feel like an empowered Goddess?” The solution is going to be unique for everyone, and it should be the one filled with compassion and acceptance of your process.

Whenever I’ve experienced severe pain, I can reflect back and always notice some of my unaligned behavioral pattern that was holding true at that point in time.

I truly desire to cultivate a healthy perspective about my menstrual cycle and become pain-free eventually, by bringing intuitive shifts in my life. It all starts energetically first, and then shows up loud in the physical body.

So, if you experience period pain as well, it’s an invitation for you to check what your divine feminine energy needs from you. How do you feel about your body? Are you fully living and breathing your feminine nature? Do you live to make only others happy, and in return ignore your own desires? Are you objectifying and disrespecting yourself because of societal conditioning? Do you hold trauma around feeling unstable and insecure within oneself due to an unhappy childhood? Have you numbed your emotions in order to fit into a certain identity? There are so many questions you can ask yourself.

Every woman is different, unique, and beautiful. You have to find what truly nourishes all your physical and metaphysical senses, and move accordingly. Much love!

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A world without Faith

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This article might come across as an unpopular opinion. It’s absolutely okay not to agree with my outlook, and you can keep that awareness to yourself. I don’t operate from a desire to be liked or validated by anyone. I’m here to merely state the truth in my heart, my deeper perception of the cosmic line of events, and how I blend all of them to enhance my wisdom and spirituality.

For me, being spiritual has got less to do with tarot cards, astrology, crystal collections, labels, etc, and a lot to do with the connection my spirit forms with the greatest spirit of all, God. My spirit is an essence of the “Sat-chit-ananda”, the pure bliss consciousness.

No matter what religion, race, caste, creed you come from, I honor you. I see you as a soul. It’s just one God! Different religions have given him different names, but he is one. We all belong to the oneness. We come from his consciousness. However, we cannot attain that level of purity without putting in extra, dedicated efforts to our inner growth. We all have been given free will and in order to truly understand God’s consciousness, we have to exercise awareness and mastery of thoughts, beliefs, and emotions. Our actions likewise have to be aligned with our soul’s true nature and the unhealthy ego has to dissolve.

Everything is interconnected. Nevertheless, we should also learn the ability to segregate the details and see something for what it is, without adding our subjective judgment or emotional charge. I carry the remembrance of some of my past lives and reincarnation. I know I’ve lived for a long time on earth and I carry that ancientness in my blood.

My ancestors are always watching me, guiding me to break free from any generational or past life trauma that comes through. My heart has always felt drawn to learning any skill from the scratch or referring to the ancient texts/methods for furthering my practice. People were simple back then, more connected to nature and the divine.

We have come a long way in terms of external technological development. Different varieties of food, more processed and junk meals, gadgets, and tools to ease down our lives, vehicles for transportation, etc. But who’s to say if that’s actually development? What exactly is development?

We have become so overly-reliant on something outside to take care of us, that we have started ignoring our inner knowing. Our body is technology. Our brain is a supercomputer. Our third eye can see things not only of physical but also metaphysical nature. This madness of consumption of unhealthy, processed foods; addiction to gadgets, social media; living a fast-paced life where there’s no regard for the body’s natural cycle; suppression of emotions and excessive engagement in drugs, liquor, meaningless sex, porn- somehow they get classified as modern world development.

We are in Kali Yuga. The collective consciousness is meant to go down the path of inner and outer destruction so that they could the flaws in their behavior: how disconnected they have become from God’s path. As the Kali Yuga will end, Dwapara yuga will commence.

We all know how the virus situation has created a mass panic in the entire world right now. People are blaming and snitching on others who do not wear masks, without having an objective understanding of what’s going on behind the scenes. During this transformational time, I saw the deepest fears of everyone come to the forefront. People who are already compromised internally have given into their demons.

I do not see demons as bad. If anything, they are necessary to show you what needs renewal within your consciousness. The majority of the people hate demons and darkness and run away from them because they still operate from duality: good and bad, right and wrong, moral and immoral, rich and poor, etc. Duality is a great concept for the mind shrouded by ego, but it doesn’t serve any fulfillment once you start moving towards higher dimensional perception.

In truth, you cannot run away from anything that shows up at your door. Sooner or later, you will have to face it. The lessons you resist will always find its way back to you, to reveal to you something profound.

During this mass pandemonium, I had to hold back my thoughts and insights. I was afraid of sharing them on social media platforms because I feared I would be attacked verbally, mentally by people who are still in their sweet spiritual slumber. But, I no longer want to feel responsible for how I trigger people. I can just be your mirror for some deep introspection. Whether you take offense or agree with my statement, it’s solely up to where you stand in your spiritual path.

When someone is unconscious spiritually and entrenched deeply in the material world illusion, it’s easier for that person to blame others for unfavorable circumstances in one’s life. That person governed by low vibrational patterns and programming will feel inclined to see others responsible for its pain, suffering and attachment.

However, once that person takes the path of self-realization and forms a connection to the multidimensionality of the universe, one realizes that there is no one to blame for whatever has played out in its life. Blame, shame and guilt get replaced by the accountability of life choices. God gets humbly invited within as a permanent soul partner. It becomes a constant quest of deepening self-awareness through not only probing into the hidden psychological spectrum but also seeing it from a higher perspective. Duality diminishes because there’s cognizance of all the light and dark present inside.

It’s a self-mastery to hold peace and zen when the world inside and outside is crumbling apart. Death and disease: their roots go deeper than what we see superficially. Our physical bodies are mortal, but our souls are eternal. There’s a term called Prarabdha in Upnishads, which means your destiny in this lifetime and your accumulation of past lives karma(action and results). Everything that’s meant to happen for you already exists; it is pre-written.

The paths you would take, the detours you would encounter, it all exists in the now. The ego and brain might think they can trick the destiny and go down an unwritten path. Strange enough, that trickery is also a part of your soul’s lesson. God knows and sees it all. He has created all the experiences simply for your soul’s ascension.

A soul challenged by extreme physical reality conditions can only find solace and ease of burdens when it completely surrenders its existence to God, and realize that it is being taught an intense karmic lesson by Saturn.

Saturn represents the cold, harsh teacher in astrology who offers us experience, patience, and perseverance in our struggles and pain. It shows us the gift of detachment and acceptance. When we don’t give up on the lesson and stay humble, connected to God through that phase, we receive pleasant karmic blessings.

People get offended when karma gets talked about because their perception is linear. Let us stop weighing on a scale of “good” or “bad”. We can honestly never know entirely who we were in a past life and what karma we carry. Some information is hidden knowingly even though gifted with psychic powers so that it doesn’t overwhelm the soul. It’s also an act of remembrance that we are bound to cycle of reincarnations until we actively start pursuing a truer connection to God, and strive to attain him in life or death. The chase of material possessions, status symbol, having family, kids will have to go away.

When faced with the winter of life, people tend to lose faith in God. They tend to question, “If he really existed, wouldn’t he take care of my needs all the time? Could he not prevent this tragedy from happening?” These questions remind me of the incident that took place with Krishna and Uttang rishi after the war of Kurukshetra.

Uttang rishi expected that Krishna as the godhead he is, would have prevented the war and mass destruction from happening. Krishna replied that he tried his best to prevent the annihilation, but he was not successful. Uttang rishi was furious and angrily asked him the reason he couldn’t use his divine power to stop the war.

Krishna humbly said it’s all a part of the cosmic play. He has given everyone free will to choose higher consciousness. He cannot interfere with the free will of people and the decisions they make. He can guide them to a path in their greatest good, but they have to take action accordingly. He looks after the Dharma in the universe, and he would only take extreme steps when there’s no one left to protect the cosmic justice.

The same analogy applies to our lives. We blame God for all of our problems, yet we forget about his presence in our everyday activities. A true devotee is someone who carries God in its heart in all moments: happiness, sadness, joy, grief, love, sex, etc. Our presence on earth has to become a prayer rather than thinking it belongs just to temples, mosques, churches, or other institutions.

God is aware of all your thoughts, crippling fears, rejections, feelings, prayers, past, present, and future. There’s nothing hidden from him because you are an essence of him. In the modern world, the majority of people have come to think they are greater than God’s will. Hence, they control, manipulate, cheat, cause harm to others for personal gains. There’s a clear disconnection from one’s intuitive wisdom, which is how God speaks to all of us. There’s a lack of faith in our sacredness and bodily intelligence. Greed, cut-throat competition, insensitivity, jealousy, toxic masculinity, and femininity has taken over, leaving no room to include fresh perspectives.

People get scared of disease, but they don’t understand how diseases don’t suddenly make an appearance in our bodies. The more emotional and psychological blockages we hold, the more they clutter and manifest as a clear sign in our physical bodies. Now, there are definitely exceptions to this theory. We see some kids born with anomalies or specific conditions. Here, they don’t carry any karma from the current lifetime. To understand this further, one needs to dive deep into the past reincarnations and the concept of “Prarabdha”.

One can realize partially that the anomaly is either a result of past life deeds, or God wants some healing to occur either within the child itself or the family in which it is born. It can be physical, mental, or emotional healing. The reason will always be situational, and one explanation doesn’t fit all scenarios. Only open-mindedness and complete faith in the divine can bring forth “larger than life” solutions.

If a virus suddenly creates disease in your body, it can only happen when you are already compromised from inside, holding negative feelings, resentment, anger, pain, other burdens, unresolved trauma that you’ve not fully healed and released. These wounds can either be recent or from childhood conditioning. The virus simply came along and heightened the pre-existing factor.

However, if someone has not yet cultivated objective thinking and they get too wrapped up in their sentimentality or ego when they look at their inner wounds, they may not even acknowledge the issues simply because they aren’t ready for the soul healing to take place. You are the only one that can allow full healing, inside and outside.

People tend to take offense about honest inner work when they are not prepared to face the truth. There’s victim mentality, and excessive focus on the problems which are emotionally, mentally draining. They desire for quick fixes and lean towards drugs, anti-depressants, etc. Alas! They are temporary solutions.

As someone who has faced depression from 2015-18, I never relied on medicines to heal me. I had come to the point where I saw no meaning and joy in my life. I was going through a dark night of the soul and a very rude awakening. Only when I decided to transform and let my old-self die, I began seeing slowly where I had given my own power away. I had to be blatantly truthful with myself, seeing my own flaws, meanwhile learning to nurture my inner child that harbored some painful memories since childhood.

I clearly had some parental wounds. I had to forgive myself and others for the physical or emotional abuse I went through. A lot had to be healed and it was necessary for my spiritual growth. Now, I even understand the greater purpose behind my suffering. It deepened my empathy and healing gifts. My pain, resentment from a few years back has been replaced by immense gratitude now. It’s all exactly where it needs to be.

We try to fit each other in a box of “normal” and “acceptable behavior”. What is “normal” anyway? What gives someone the authority to decide and why? God is the embodiment of every aspect you see out there, and when you reject something as unacceptable, it means you haven’t accepted fully God for what he is. When you detest the disease that is showing up in your face, it means you are turning away from what needs to soften within you.

If you are terrified of death, it means your healing is around detachment from your physical vessel. You are being taught the impermanence of this reality, and the eternity of your soul. One day we all will die when God wills it. We won’t leave if it’s not our time yet. Some people go through near-death experiences for the same reason. We can be all locked up inside our homes, but if death has to find us, it will be offered to us anyway.

These are some extremely triggering and painful insights. I often question myself, “How would I react if someone I loved died in front of my eyes?”I imagine myself detached, trying to stay neutral even when my heart would be in pieces. Maybe I would close my eyes at the spot, say a silent prayer for the soul’s peaceful journey in the afterworld. I’ve somehow prepared myself for some harsh universal truths and I don’t know my response until it shows up.

Are you now able to connect the dots here? Are you able to see the lesson involved bigger than this material world illusion?

If we have not widened our spiritual vision, we can easily get caught up in the cycles of suffering and may lose our connection from the higher truth, which has existed right from the time of creation. When our body is struggling with a disease, and if our willpower to change is fuelled simultaneously with God’s plans for us to live, it becomes a sign for our soul to attain the mind, body, and spirit balance.

The desired changes can be anything: eating healthy; meditating every day; journaling down our feelings and not suppressing/avoiding them; exercising according to our doshas(Refer to ayurvedic wisdom); proper sleep routine; healthy emotional/mental behavior; pursuing a path we are passionate about; etc. One needs to do some serious reflection and inner work to observe where they are holding themselves back, and what restricting belief system one carries. If required, take the help of a healer/mentor who guides you without making you dependent on external drugs.

Nowadays we mindlessly consume processed food items. Learn to prepare meals from scratch. Consume whole grains, fresh fruits, and vegetables. If milk, eggs, or meat hasn’t come from a local farm (where it has not been obviously commercialized), try not to consume it. Processed food contains toxic substances, preservatives, and artificial flavors, which negatively impact your immunity. So, be careful to read the labels for ingredients before buying anything.

There are no quick remedies for any disease. Maybe one can suppress it temporarily through drugs and medicines, but if the root cause has not been resolved, that disease can reappear. Dis-ease means clearly your soul is out of ease with something. It takes self-mastery to stop chasing things that destroy your overall wellness. In a world full of various distractions, it is your responsibility as a soul to take a holistic approach to everything. The alchemy you will go through will be astounding.

We talk about God, prayers, religious beliefs, and take offense when someone disagrees with our narrative. But have we ever tried to fully understand God? Sometimes, we act with him as an insolent child or a selfish friend. We want him to provide for us everything, but we don’t want to give back pure commitment and devotion. My idea of devotion is different from what all the religions teach. It’s not about how many times you pray, what strict rules and dogmas you follow.

My connection to God is through unconditional love. It’s about simply knowing in your heart that he is with you all the time. Talk to him, love him, adore him, form a personal bond with him. You will have to practice true devotion beyond ego and enamored in divine passion, to completely understand what it means. Words can fall short.

With your resolute faith, you need to keep moving with determination and ask for his company and love, when you face hardships. God is omnipresent. He is not only sitting somewhere at the top, but he is also by your side. He is boundless, loving, playful, joyous, compassionate, but he also embodies darkness very well. He is the yogi of the highest order, and I can simply hope that humans put greater effort into understanding his creation.

When we are blinded by Maya,” the material world illusion”, we won’t see God around us. The simpler we become, liberate ourselves from meaningless drama, and get in touch with our pristine nature, we begin to see God everywhere. As much as we pray to him, we also begin loving him with an open heart.

What path we choose to follow, no one can force us into that. God only creates situations in our lives according to our Prarabdha: our karmic debts, and destiny. If we stay steadfast, we find the key to higher consciousness. If we resist and blame, we never break free from the earthly cycle.